Thursday, June 29, 2006
Then there's Thursday.(my alliteration)
the day started out fine, but i couldn't really sleep after not going to school for 2 days! Jobshadowing was well jobshadowing, i hope i grow into a super duper cool person to cover up how boring my job is with big, big vocabulary, so that it may seem just a little more interesting. Either that, or have an actually cool and super job.
Baking at sunrice
We, gladd, nat and me baked apple pie tart or flan, the end product wasn't really nice, it was just really sour and tasteless, after 2 slices i felt like puking, but acutally held it back since it was my pride and joy and i really hate to puke now. The french chef was not really hot (damn, le sigh), he had such a thick french accent that half the time i was going, "what" in my head. Overall, not worth the wad of moolah we paid, which was about close to $50. Sam ate like 3 pieces or something close, give it up for the girl, i think she fully made use of the $50. We had a lot of picture taking sessions, too many for me, it started to remind me of japan and i started to feel sad, like a deep low sunken feeling. I dream about japan, the bulk of us at disney and the jap. students, i must be crazy, i must be suffering from japan withdrawal symptons (jws). We gave our remaining tart to mrs. tan, before she told us that we could bring it home.
Eating at plaza sing.
I had yu pian mee fen, gladd and nat had some indon malay curry chicken. We almost sat at the same place where xiao hui and I sat the last time. It was for gn meeting, i almost melted at the memories that seat brought, but i doubt the girls noticed, they were ogling at the chicken. After lunched we walked around and then after that took the mrt, for me to home, for them to school.
On the way home, I was reading newsweek, but as usual my mind drifted to that life contemplation pysche. And i decided to take life one day at a time, no need for big plans, just small schemes to drive me further in life. I made 2 lists when i was little, one "Path of life jo lynn would most probably take" and "Path of life that jo lynn would take if she had courage". See? I dont think i am on any path now, isnt that the best? I rather the road leads me than i lead the road, life is more romantic and mysterious in that way. I got home really fast, in like 10 mins, reminds me of my zhss days, where i took about 15mins to go home, compare it to now, 1 bloody hour. But then time is always easier to waste.
Now for my real purpose of the entry, today June 29, 2006 is the day that i managed to create my own charcoal fire by myself. No parental guidance, help of any kind, just me and my charcoal. It is a very delicate art, it takes a lot of skill. My mom can do it with minimal smoke. Today, i had too much smoke so i started to panic. I started off with having to light the fire, i hate matches, but after like 2 matchsticks finally managed to light one firestarter. The trick is to always allow enough air, so that it does not smoke, the minute you lift off the charcoal, the firestarter will start to burn again. I had really chunky pieces and that kinda formed the base structure for me to start inserting the firestarter in every nook and cranny. then after, once your fire is stablized, i showered little pieces in to keep it burning. I learnt something new today. Something i know i will never have learnt if it was a normal school day, so thank you enrichment week. Ok, my mum just called me siao for using too much charcoal. damn.
If only life was easier, then i wouldn't have to worry.
If only laughter, chocolates and ice -cream could cure all pain.
If only money grew on trees.
If only we could be more genuine and sincere.
If only i could say or write what i truly feel, instead of crapping half the time.
If only we could do what we want, have what we want, when we want.
If only life could be simpler.
Fin
Jo lynn at 6:26 PM